aku da x leh sabar dah. nmpak muka pm aku, menyirap darah aku ni. selama ni aku sabar. aku da hilang gigi 2 btg. aku asek mc aje. selama ni aku ikut aje arahan. aku bersuara pun x de sape nk dgr. mg3 is haywired from day 1.
dgn ini aku declare, my patience ends here...
Monday, 20 August 2007
Sunday, 19 August 2007
Teraniaya Tanpa Sedar
August.. aku da mula serasi dengan tempat kerja.. ini bulan ke 9 aku keje kt honeyhell ni.. bermula dgn tak tahu ape2.. aku even x sangka honeyhell ni involve industry oil n gas.. wat made me accept the job was because the interviewer promised me that everybody new will be given training first.. he is well acknowledged of my lack of experience in networking which he intend to put me into.. he is well acknowledged that i only had 1 year of working experience..
masa memula join, aku quite happy. coz aku diberi masa untuk settle down and learn .. masuk january things started to get haywired.aku culture shock bila tau wat projek untuk oil n gas.. dpt pulak discipline lead yg mcm org giler.... obviously he doesn't like me. and i don't like him too.. fair enuf...
3rd month keje,february, aku nekad nk quit.. intensively seeked for jobs.. got a few... tp bila istikharah.. hunch untuk stay sgt kuat.. so aku pun stay..
6th month keje, that was the peak of suffer.. aku x leh lupa kejadian di bulan mei itu... nasib baik ada kengkawan.. toqmat, ida, anne, saiful, rajah, eric,ijan.. k.wati, kak ct.. xsangka jugak aku manage jgk la got thru...
this month.. segalanye terjawab.. bila da ada system crash kiterang report kt expert dr singapore, alex. i spent about 2.5 days with him.. mmg byk benda aku belajar dgn dia.. so basically dia explain wat went wrong n wat are the possibilities that made things wrong.
aku sgt gembira bila alex ckp the major problem is focalpoint person is not trained. wow aku x sangka dia akn guna word major problem. anyway thanx a load.. then ada ismatch configuration kt switch jgk.. yg tu mmg silap aku la.. tapi alex kt dia pun pernah connect CF9 ty kt different configured ports n it doesn't give any harm.. n mmg aku tahu x de harm. coz da byk benda jalan under that switch.. haha.. but still, for me, lesson learnt..he told me not to worry.. pastu dia ada tegur pasal architecture.. this is a big matter..
mostly menda yg alex tegur, da byk org yg expert kt sini tegur.. tp since pm pandai sgt.. ikut ckp x-EM yg bo*** itu..
alex kt it is not fair, to give such responsibilities to new ppl like me.. aku x kn lupa smpai mati apa yg management ni buat kt aku.. aku sgt2 rs teraniaya.. walaubagaimana pun, aku syukur dgn apa yg ALLah kurniakan... i can forgive, but i cannot forget..
masa memula join, aku quite happy. coz aku diberi masa untuk settle down and learn .. masuk january things started to get haywired.aku culture shock bila tau wat projek untuk oil n gas.. dpt pulak discipline lead yg mcm org giler.... obviously he doesn't like me. and i don't like him too.. fair enuf...
3rd month keje,february, aku nekad nk quit.. intensively seeked for jobs.. got a few... tp bila istikharah.. hunch untuk stay sgt kuat.. so aku pun stay..
6th month keje, that was the peak of suffer.. aku x leh lupa kejadian di bulan mei itu... nasib baik ada kengkawan.. toqmat, ida, anne, saiful, rajah, eric,ijan.. k.wati, kak ct.. xsangka jugak aku manage jgk la got thru...
this month.. segalanye terjawab.. bila da ada system crash kiterang report kt expert dr singapore, alex. i spent about 2.5 days with him.. mmg byk benda aku belajar dgn dia.. so basically dia explain wat went wrong n wat are the possibilities that made things wrong.
aku sgt gembira bila alex ckp the major problem is focalpoint person is not trained. wow aku x sangka dia akn guna word major problem. anyway thanx a load.. then ada ismatch configuration kt switch jgk.. yg tu mmg silap aku la.. tapi alex kt dia pun pernah connect CF9 ty kt different configured ports n it doesn't give any harm.. n mmg aku tahu x de harm. coz da byk benda jalan under that switch.. haha.. but still, for me, lesson learnt..he told me not to worry.. pastu dia ada tegur pasal architecture.. this is a big matter..
mostly menda yg alex tegur, da byk org yg expert kt sini tegur.. tp since pm pandai sgt.. ikut ckp x-EM yg bo*** itu..
alex kt it is not fair, to give such responsibilities to new ppl like me.. aku x kn lupa smpai mati apa yg management ni buat kt aku.. aku sgt2 rs teraniaya.. walaubagaimana pun, aku syukur dgn apa yg ALLah kurniakan... i can forgive, but i cannot forget..
Sunday, 12 August 2007
Always Look at the Big Picture
hai bloggie.. it's sunday and here i am at home .. alone.. just got back from pyramid to collect my new spectacles.. as earlier my specs broke into two..hmm so sad...
today nothing interesting happened.. just a normal day.. thank GOD.. still a month to go for mg3 fat to be over.. hmm can't wait for it to happen.. its gud to be free from mg3.. to me.. this project is not a total hate.. an't deny learned a load tho.. n learned it the hard way..
it's a good lesson for me tho.. it's just sometimes i just think, everything in my life, lesson learnt.. but from the hard way.. so.. the best that i can do is, to see things from a bigger picture..
today nothing interesting happened.. just a normal day.. thank GOD.. still a month to go for mg3 fat to be over.. hmm can't wait for it to happen.. its gud to be free from mg3.. to me.. this project is not a total hate.. an't deny learned a load tho.. n learned it the hard way..
it's a good lesson for me tho.. it's just sometimes i just think, everything in my life, lesson learnt.. but from the hard way.. so.. the best that i can do is, to see things from a bigger picture..
Monday, 6 August 2007
What you give, you get back..
what you give, you get back.. selalu kt dengar, we treat people, the way we want people to treat us.. somewhat true..I might say very true.. da bnyak menda aku witness.. mmg kt dpt balik apa yg kita buat kt orang.. my stepmom, married suami orang (my dad i mean to say..) ended up my dad married another one.. my fren, kutuk mcm2 kt another fren.. in the end she was doing the same thing..
last week keluar org chart baru... all i look for is just the name for the position of Engineering Manager .. aku x kesah pun nama aku kt maner.. and thank GOD.. my OM held on to his words.. tak sia2 luahan rasa kiterang sebelum ni.. so far my new EM memang best.. i felt a lot more confident being under him.. even baru sekejap.. and just hope for it to last as long as I'm working at honeywell.. hmm bila da tau honeywell ni mcm mane.. skrg aku rs aku nk set satu target.. gain as much experience as I can.. when the time comes, blah la.. sia sia je berjanggut kat honeywell ni.. aku pk aku ni x byk exp aje.. so kena la stay lama sikit kt honeywell ni. matlamat aku, aku nak kaya.. so kalo nak kaya mmg x leh la lelama kt honeywell ni.. aku ada byk hutang nk setel.. n byk benda aku nk buat.. n contribute kt family aku..
love ur job but never love ur company... tadi g dinner kt secret recipe.. mkn udang lagi.. harini hari mkn udang sedunia.. tgh udang.. ptg udang.. sheila banjer.. best giller.. pastu g umah ida kejap jumpa sorang "bapak" ni.. mtk tlg tgkkan ayah dia.. hmm sian dia.. sheila ada masalah family.. skrg ni mak dia nk cerai.. katanye ayah dia tu da x leh nk diubatkan da.. mmg asalnye ayah dia kn buat dek org.. tp since ayah dia mmg originally x best.. so susah la nk ubat.. dlm kete byk ida ngn sheila dok bercerita psl kes2 rumahtangga ni.. kawin suami orang la.. isteri pregnant suami kawin lain la.. mcm2.. cerai sana cerai sini... aku terdiam.. timbul dlm hati aku rs mcm ee aku x nk dgr sume cite ni.. dr umah ida smpi blk semula opis aku diam aje.. aku x suka nak take part dlm conversation tu.. tiba2 mood aku pun jadik x best..
senang je nk ckp.. pasal kes org ni cerai.. org tu cerai.. tp bukan senang nk tahu apa perasaan si anak.. bila mak ngn ayah cerai.. benda mcm ni kena kt batang hidung baru tahu apa rasanya.. bg aku, walau pun dah lama mak ngn ayah aku cerai.. almost 10 years.. tp semuanya masih lagi crystal clear dlm kepala aku.. n aku x kan lupa sampai aku masuk kubur.. aku ckp ngn sheila.. apa pun yg pnting kt ikhtiar.. jgn nanti suatu hari nanti kt menyesal.. dgn apa yg jadi.. tapi sebabnye ada lah kerana kita x ikhtiar..
yg pasti aku x suka tgk orang cerai.. Tuhan pun kata cerai itu ada lah perkara yg paling dibenciNYA.. entah la..semua orang ingat cerai itu penyelesaian.. mungkin bg situasi situasi tertentu.. aku rs Nabi Muhammad sruh kite cuba sampai da takde ikhtiar dah, cerai is the last thing to do..
bukannye senang cerai ni.. bg aku, kesan mak ngn ayah aku cerai masih panas lagi.. kdg2 pun aku susah nk terima.. byk menda aku rs nk marah.. n aku rs actually menda tu blh diselesaikan.. tp disebab kan ketika itu emosi mengetuai segalanye.. kerana itula perceraian terjadi..
apa2 pun.. ALLah know BEST.. n aku tetap bersyukur dgn apa yg ALLah takdirkan untuk aku.. cuma aku ni kdg2 x pandai nk hargai.. setitis derita melanda, seribu kurniaanNYA.. wallahualam bissawab
last week keluar org chart baru... all i look for is just the name for the position of Engineering Manager .. aku x kesah pun nama aku kt maner.. and thank GOD.. my OM held on to his words.. tak sia2 luahan rasa kiterang sebelum ni.. so far my new EM memang best.. i felt a lot more confident being under him.. even baru sekejap.. and just hope for it to last as long as I'm working at honeywell.. hmm bila da tau honeywell ni mcm mane.. skrg aku rs aku nk set satu target.. gain as much experience as I can.. when the time comes, blah la.. sia sia je berjanggut kat honeywell ni.. aku pk aku ni x byk exp aje.. so kena la stay lama sikit kt honeywell ni. matlamat aku, aku nak kaya.. so kalo nak kaya mmg x leh la lelama kt honeywell ni.. aku ada byk hutang nk setel.. n byk benda aku nk buat.. n contribute kt family aku..
love ur job but never love ur company... tadi g dinner kt secret recipe.. mkn udang lagi.. harini hari mkn udang sedunia.. tgh udang.. ptg udang.. sheila banjer.. best giller.. pastu g umah ida kejap jumpa sorang "bapak" ni.. mtk tlg tgkkan ayah dia.. hmm sian dia.. sheila ada masalah family.. skrg ni mak dia nk cerai.. katanye ayah dia tu da x leh nk diubatkan da.. mmg asalnye ayah dia kn buat dek org.. tp since ayah dia mmg originally x best.. so susah la nk ubat.. dlm kete byk ida ngn sheila dok bercerita psl kes2 rumahtangga ni.. kawin suami orang la.. isteri pregnant suami kawin lain la.. mcm2.. cerai sana cerai sini... aku terdiam.. timbul dlm hati aku rs mcm ee aku x nk dgr sume cite ni.. dr umah ida smpi blk semula opis aku diam aje.. aku x suka nak take part dlm conversation tu.. tiba2 mood aku pun jadik x best..
senang je nk ckp.. pasal kes org ni cerai.. org tu cerai.. tp bukan senang nk tahu apa perasaan si anak.. bila mak ngn ayah cerai.. benda mcm ni kena kt batang hidung baru tahu apa rasanya.. bg aku, walau pun dah lama mak ngn ayah aku cerai.. almost 10 years.. tp semuanya masih lagi crystal clear dlm kepala aku.. n aku x kan lupa sampai aku masuk kubur.. aku ckp ngn sheila.. apa pun yg pnting kt ikhtiar.. jgn nanti suatu hari nanti kt menyesal.. dgn apa yg jadi.. tapi sebabnye ada lah kerana kita x ikhtiar..
yg pasti aku x suka tgk orang cerai.. Tuhan pun kata cerai itu ada lah perkara yg paling dibenciNYA.. entah la..semua orang ingat cerai itu penyelesaian.. mungkin bg situasi situasi tertentu.. aku rs Nabi Muhammad sruh kite cuba sampai da takde ikhtiar dah, cerai is the last thing to do..
bukannye senang cerai ni.. bg aku, kesan mak ngn ayah aku cerai masih panas lagi.. kdg2 pun aku susah nk terima.. byk menda aku rs nk marah.. n aku rs actually menda tu blh diselesaikan.. tp disebab kan ketika itu emosi mengetuai segalanye.. kerana itula perceraian terjadi..
apa2 pun.. ALLah know BEST.. n aku tetap bersyukur dgn apa yg ALLah takdirkan untuk aku.. cuma aku ni kdg2 x pandai nk hargai.. setitis derita melanda, seribu kurniaanNYA.. wallahualam bissawab
Sunday, 5 August 2007
Simpsonize my weekend
it has been quite some time since i went wandering at malls.. i finally got the time to do so.. went to OU today with milo.. da lama bercita-cita nk berjalan2 kt OU tu.. coz aku jarang g OU ni benanye.. so arini dapat la tgk movie kt sana.. Simpsons the movie... memang BEST giler.. sgt2 kelakar.. dari mula sampai habis asyik geeeeelaaaakkk ajer.. huhu..
then jenjalan kt OU . bought maself one tshirt... hmm green color.. jarang giler beli green.. asek hitam merah biru.. hmm ...
arini aku g opis jugak.. ok la.. aku rs gembira jgk g opis arini.. coz dpt solve one problem tadi.. nsb baik jgk kalo x x dpt la g ronggeng kt OU..
last week aku penat keje.. coz it was myFAT.. only 3 days but the preparation was more than that.. ari2 pun bangung awal.. x nak lambat takut customer tunggu .. kang kena komplen pulak.. aku happy jgk wat FAT tu.. barula aku tahu.. customer aku ni memang x best langsung... naik menyampah da jadinye.. tanya soklan yg bodoh.. benda kecik2 pun nk punch.. siott tul.. aku dpt 28 punchlist.. FAT tu amin la yg jd tulang belakang aku.. aku jadi semangat coz he's a great leader.. memang betul pun statement yg aku tampal kt opis tu.. a BOSS creates fear.. a LEADER creates confidence..
insyaallah aku akan berusaha lebih gigih lagi lepas ni.. ceh wah...
then jenjalan kt OU . bought maself one tshirt... hmm green color.. jarang giler beli green.. asek hitam merah biru.. hmm ...
arini aku g opis jugak.. ok la.. aku rs gembira jgk g opis arini.. coz dpt solve one problem tadi.. nsb baik jgk kalo x x dpt la g ronggeng kt OU..
last week aku penat keje.. coz it was myFAT.. only 3 days but the preparation was more than that.. ari2 pun bangung awal.. x nak lambat takut customer tunggu .. kang kena komplen pulak.. aku happy jgk wat FAT tu.. barula aku tahu.. customer aku ni memang x best langsung... naik menyampah da jadinye.. tanya soklan yg bodoh.. benda kecik2 pun nk punch.. siott tul.. aku dpt 28 punchlist.. FAT tu amin la yg jd tulang belakang aku.. aku jadi semangat coz he's a great leader.. memang betul pun statement yg aku tampal kt opis tu.. a BOSS creates fear.. a LEADER creates confidence..
insyaallah aku akan berusaha lebih gigih lagi lepas ni.. ceh wah...
Saturday, 4 August 2007
25 MOST Spontaneous Questions
25 of the MOST Spontaneous Questions Ever, BE HONEST.
1. What do you want for your birthday?
: him
2. Who will be your next kiss?
: hmmm..
3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
: can't recall.. damn i didn't have the time.. oh my !
4. Are you wearing socks right now?
: nope
5. How did you spend your summer?
: here no summer laa..
6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
: no.. i'm always in the office.. damn !!
7. What was the last thing you had drink?
: sky juice
8. What are you wearing right now?
: pyjamas
9. What was your last purchase?
: my lunch
10.What was the last food you ate?
: nasik+brocolli+ayam goreng kunyit beli kt jaring.. nyum..
11. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
: i don't call people when i can't sleep
12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
: nope.. i dun even go to the mall..
13. Do you have a pet?
: i don't fancy animals..
14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
: sweet memories
15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
: with my nephews..
16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
: reload coupon
17. One thing you hate about yourself?
: can't fight/stand for maself
18. What's your favourite soup?
: chicken soup/sup tulang
19. Do you miss anyone?
: my nephews..
20. What are your plans for the day?
: get some rest
21. Last person you msg'd?
: KJ
22. Ever went to camp?
: maybe..
23. Are you a good student in school?
: i was the quiet one..
24. What do you know about the (your) future?
: i'll be rich... definitely.. hehehehe
25. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
: LANCOME
1. What do you want for your birthday?
: him
2. Who will be your next kiss?
: hmmm..
3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
: can't recall.. damn i didn't have the time.. oh my !
4. Are you wearing socks right now?
: nope
5. How did you spend your summer?
: here no summer laa..
6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
: no.. i'm always in the office.. damn !!
7. What was the last thing you had drink?
: sky juice
8. What are you wearing right now?
: pyjamas
9. What was your last purchase?
: my lunch
10.What was the last food you ate?
: nasik+brocolli+ayam goreng kunyit beli kt jaring.. nyum..
11. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
: i don't call people when i can't sleep
12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
: nope.. i dun even go to the mall..
13. Do you have a pet?
: i don't fancy animals..
14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
: sweet memories
15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
: with my nephews..
16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
: reload coupon
17. One thing you hate about yourself?
: can't fight/stand for maself
18. What's your favourite soup?
: chicken soup/sup tulang
19. Do you miss anyone?
: my nephews..
20. What are your plans for the day?
: get some rest
21. Last person you msg'd?
: KJ
22. Ever went to camp?
: maybe..
23. Are you a good student in school?
: i was the quiet one..
24. What do you know about the (your) future?
: i'll be rich... definitely.. hehehehe
25. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
: LANCOME
Friday, 27 July 2007
50 things about me that's gonna turn u on!
50 things about me that's gonna turn you off
Message: You opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you! (NOTE: I opened it and I had to fill it out...rules are rules)
1. How tall are you barefoot?
+ 158cm
2. Have you ever smoked?
+ no
3. Do you own a gun?
+ no.. not interested..
4. Do you hate someone right now?
+ not really
5. Do you get nervous?
+ at times
6. What do you think of hotdogs?
+ fattening.. but yummy
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
+ i wud go for hari raya song ?!
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
+ teh o limau suam satu !
9. Can you do push ups?
+ haha never can..
11.What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
+ necklace
12. Do you like painkillers?
+ i've nothing against em
13. What is your secret weapon to lure the opposite sex?
+ my courtesy.. i guess..
14. Do you own a knife?
+ yes.. need those to cook right.. ??!! haha
15. Do you have H.I.V?
+ no
16. Name?
+ alia
17. Name 3 things u wanna do at this exact moment?
+ sleep since it's 5 in the morning.. woke up from bed feeling hungry
+read harry potter book
+nasi lemak !
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought lately:
+ a sling, medicine and medicine.. it's hard to be sick..
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
+ tea, nestum, limau suam
20. What time did you wake up today? =
+ 3am.. trying to get back to sleep
22. Current worry?
+ i need a car..
23 Current hate?
+ myself depending on others
24. Favorite place to be?
+where i am now
25. Least favorite place to be?
+ hospitals/clinics or anything like it..
26. Where would you like to go?
+ go to bed.. :)
27. Do you own slippers?
+ yes
28. What shirt are you wearing?
+ black t-shirt
30. Favorite color?
+ red+black+blue
31.Would you like to be a pirate?
+ no, they r dirty and ugly
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
+ i don't drink
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
+ padi - menanti sebuah jawaban
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
+ daytime.. where it's time to get up.. haha
35.What's in your pocket/s right now?
+ nothing
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
+ some stupid tv programme on tv3 called susuk
37. last thing that made you cry?
+ my accident
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
+ 2002, sprained my knee, shoulder and elbow in an accident..
39. Who is your loudest friend?
+ myself.. hehe
42.Who is your most silent friend?
+ none.. if silent how to befriend.. hehe
43.last movie watched?
+ harry potter
44. What is your favorite book?
+ dan brown/harry potter
45.What is your favorite chocolate
+ plain chocolate
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
+ hmmm..
48. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
+ tido la apo laiee..
49. What was the First thing you did today?
+ ironing
50. What was the last thing you did the day before yesterday?
+healing myself
Post this as "50 things about me that's gonna turn u on!"
Message: You opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you! (NOTE: I opened it and I had to fill it out...rules are rules)
1. How tall are you barefoot?
+ 158cm
2. Have you ever smoked?
+ no
3. Do you own a gun?
+ no.. not interested..
4. Do you hate someone right now?
+ not really
5. Do you get nervous?
+ at times
6. What do you think of hotdogs?
+ fattening.. but yummy
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
+ i wud go for hari raya song ?!
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
+ teh o limau suam satu !
9. Can you do push ups?
+ haha never can..
11.What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
+ necklace
12. Do you like painkillers?
+ i've nothing against em
13. What is your secret weapon to lure the opposite sex?
+ my courtesy.. i guess..
14. Do you own a knife?
+ yes.. need those to cook right.. ??!! haha
15. Do you have H.I.V?
+ no
16. Name?
+ alia
17. Name 3 things u wanna do at this exact moment?
+ sleep since it's 5 in the morning.. woke up from bed feeling hungry
+read harry potter book
+nasi lemak !
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought lately:
+ a sling, medicine and medicine.. it's hard to be sick..
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
+ tea, nestum, limau suam
20. What time did you wake up today? =
+ 3am.. trying to get back to sleep
22. Current worry?
+ i need a car..
23 Current hate?
+ myself depending on others
24. Favorite place to be?
+where i am now
25. Least favorite place to be?
+ hospitals/clinics or anything like it..
26. Where would you like to go?
+ go to bed.. :)
27. Do you own slippers?
+ yes
28. What shirt are you wearing?
+ black t-shirt
30. Favorite color?
+ red+black+blue
31.Would you like to be a pirate?
+ no, they r dirty and ugly
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
+ i don't drink
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
+ padi - menanti sebuah jawaban
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
+ daytime.. where it's time to get up.. haha
35.What's in your pocket/s right now?
+ nothing
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
+ some stupid tv programme on tv3 called susuk
37. last thing that made you cry?
+ my accident
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
+ 2002, sprained my knee, shoulder and elbow in an accident..
39. Who is your loudest friend?
+ myself.. hehe
42.Who is your most silent friend?
+ none.. if silent how to befriend.. hehe
43.last movie watched?
+ harry potter
44. What is your favorite book?
+ dan brown/harry potter
45.What is your favorite chocolate
+ plain chocolate
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
+ hmmm..
48. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
+ tido la apo laiee..
49. What was the First thing you did today?
+ ironing
50. What was the last thing you did the day before yesterday?
+healing myself
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