It's 30 now..

i feel like crying.. huhu... i'm quite surprised, as I went thru the operation this morning.. mcm x caya jek rasanye.. my tooth is gone within an hour.. last night kul 230 baru tido.. besala melayan mcblog kesayangan.. mengdonlod lagu penyejuk hati.. melayan anging di balkoni.. ceh wah.. kengkononnya pagi ni ada janji nk brekfes ngn bapak aku.. katanye 730 pagi.. tercongok la aku 730 kt kedai mamak tu.. tup tup 745 xde pulak batang idong en.hassan norddeen.. aku bekfes jek la sensorang.. ntah nape the moment i woke up this morning rs cm nk marah jek.. haha.. x cukup tido agaknye.. pulak tu kn bangun pagi nk bekfes ngn ayah, tengok2 x muncul.. hurmm nk hot pun x bleh coz bapak aku.. huhu.. memandangkan aku da faham sgt perangai bapak ku yg penuh dgn kejutan, so aku wat dek aje la..

after brekfes, aku balik umah dulu gosok gg sepuas-puasnye.. yela nk jumpa dentist kenala bersih bersih.. kang x pasal len plak kn buat nanti.. huhuhu.. dlm kul 820 tu aku turun.. sblum g UH aku singgah opis antar draft doc utk kak wati cad.. wah terasa cam apsal la ku ni dedicated sgt.. hehe mestila sbb HPU2 nye pasal.. kalo mg3 tu 4 5 kali jgk la aku fikir.. kih kih kih... jantung aku ni asek dok berdegup jek dgn pantas sejak malam tadik.. berdebor giller.. nervous.. sampai spital je as expected ada la dlm 1/2 jam aku tunggu.. then nurse tu panggil aku dlm kul 945 am, tanya leh tgu lagi ke coz dentist aku, dr.hanim trapped dlm traffic jam.. i didn't mind .. dlm hati kensel pun x per.. haha.. serba x kena aku dibuatnye.. kejap dok dpn tv.. kejap dok belakang. kejap dok depan..dok belek newspaper 2 3 kali.. baca tu baca tp da x bleh masuk da dlm kepla otak aku ni.. huhu..

after dlm 20 minutes, nurse tu panggil aku lagi.. nsb bek nurse ni cool je.. so aku cool sikittt laa.. terbeliak mata aku bila dia panggil nama aku.. Tuhan saje la yg tahu debor x debor hati aku.. pastu masuk la bilik OT tu.. nurse tu tny cepat jugak awak nk cabut gg lg 1 ni.. aku ckp aah la coz nnt pasni sibuk sikit takut x dek masa.. nurse added said that bagus la.. coz dr.hanim start next month xde.. dia ngah wat specialist.. pastu doc datang.. explain kt aku ape yg akan dibuat pd aku.. hmm ghopenye gg bongsu kanan aku ni mmg x visible langsung.. xray baru nampak.. dia tertanam.. senget plak tu.. doc tu explain, since gg tu tertanam, so kena potong gusi sikit.. mcm buat pintu la untuk nk akses gg yg tertanam tu.. pastu since gg tu is in between tulang, so kena la drill sikit gg tu.. sbb nk tarik mcm bese x muat nk keluar..

pastu kena sign letter of consent.. pastu doc kata, kali ni bukan mcm aritu..mata kena tutup.. sbb banyak guna sharp utensils. kalo u nampak nnt u lari.. haha doc tu kata.. aku pun oh yeke.. aku tny sy nk tido bleh x.. huhu doc x kasik.. so dia tutup la muka aku, kasik nmpak mulut jek..badan suma tutup la ngn kain takut terpercik darah.. then doc ngn nurse explain la beberapa jenis bunyi yg aku akan dengar.. ada bunyi mesin fluid management tu - to suck my air liur n blood. pastu ada bunyi drill untuk potong gg .. pastu bunyi ape tah lagi aku x ingat da..

setiap step yg dia buat dia announce dulu kt aku.. memula bese la inject bius nk kasi kebas.. aku rs cam 1/4 muka aku ni kebas.. lidah kebas.. pipi,, dagu pun kebas.. pastu dia testing cucuk2 ngn besi tny rs sakit ke x.. bila da x sakit baru dia potong gusi.. aku mmg x nmpak la alat yg dia guna.. tp aku dgr bunyi jek.. da potong gusi then dia drill.. nurse tu ckp kt aku x de pe. mcm masa tampal gg je.. tp doc tu tau aku x pnh tampal gg.. maklumla gg cantik.. sehat dan kuat.. hehehehe.. lama jugak dia drill.. aku sampai adoi bila la nk abis..aku rs cam aku x relaks kot badan aku. so nurse tu ckp kt aku suh relaks sikit lidah aku.. adoi masa tu la rs cam .. mak ai... lidah aku pun kerass.. di asuh relaks.. ms nk tarik gg tu ade rs sakit sikit... doc pesan kalo sakit cakap.. so aku kuarkan la bunyi bunyian ckp sakit.. so dia berhenti skejap.. kejap jek dlm 10 saat.. pstu dia teruskan kerja dia.. during the operation tu.. doc ngn nurse tu borak2 la.. mcm2 la derang borak.. so somehow aku get distracted jugak about the pain.. it kept me a lil bit calm..

pastu bila da tarik kuar gg tu, nurse tu, pn saadiah gtau.. pastu dia kata ok skrang nk jahit gusi ye.. relaks kan badan ye dik.. hehe.. keras jgk kot badan aku.. nurse tu kn pegang dahi aku.. hehe.. pastu aku da relaks skt.. aku rasa cam terasa jugak kot kena jahit.. rs cm ade benang ..

pastu abis la.. sakit kepla jugak after abis tu..pastu doc tu suh aku bangun n ajak aku tngok gg aku .. hehe.. dah terbelah 2 gg tu.. nurse tu tny ade pening ke.. aku ckp aah.. pastu dia suh aku baring coz ms bangun tu rs cam nk jatuh je....so dlm 15 minit aku rest kejap la.. pastu after da g bayar kt kaunter.. nurse tu bungkus kan gg aku..n bg a few instructions mcm suh ltk ais n kumur air garam la.. mula dia cam x konfiden nk suh aku balik.. coz dia ny aku dtg naik pe.. aku ckp naik mtr.. boleh ke ni ? hmm aku ckp ok je.. coz mmg nk balik sangat2 masa tu... pastu aku ckp thanx kt doktor then aku pun balik..

pastu bapak aku tepon tny da sudah ke aku cakap da.. pastu dia suh aku dtg umah dia bawak roti canai ngn rokok sampoerna.. haha poyo x poyo en hassan tu.. hehehe... time balik tu rs jugak la mcm nk pengsan.. bwk mtr slow jek.. rs cam x bermaya... da antar roti canai ngn rokok kt bapak aku.. aku pun balik.. x larat aku nk lepak umah ayah.. so aku pun balik.. singgah beli nestum.. pastu naik atas...

hurmm mcm tu la pengalaman cabut gg arini.. alhamdulillah everything went well.. insyaallah pas ni x perlu la suffer lagi sakit gg.. bersyukur kpd ALLah everything is over .. n also thank you to my frenz and family for all the moral supports.. nasib baik diberi kekuatan untuk pergi UH pagi tadi.. hehe.. kalo x buat skrg, lg lama tunggu nnt nk buat lagi sakit...

maka hari ini tinggal la 30 gigi ku... hehe..

The Reunion

Indulgence is just the right word for my weekend... fulfilled the desire for my appetite, loneliness, a need of a listener and... having moments with frenzz.. da lama da, since the last time i really enjoyed myself..

memula main bowling kt ampang point.. 2 game.. haha 1st game jek aku ok skt.. maklumla aku ni tangan bangku.. my hands are not fit for bowling.. main campak aje..main 6 orang.. elly, intan, leez, mizo and sue... sue is leez's fren.. then i realised that she was my schoolmate masa kt SMART fom 1993 till 1995... haha kecik tul dunia ni..da 2 kali jumpa dak sue ni.. patut la seperti ku kenal wajah itu.. satu sekolah ghopenye.. hehe best dpt keep track balik schoolmate.. the good old days.. pastu g makan kt MMCR.. linda onn's.. borak2.. yang best bila keluar ngn kengkawan ni, just by seating together, x ckp pepe pun rs terisi.. diam tu ade makna..
it's becoz we r with friends.. when left, we felt like we've talked a lot... pastu briskwalk and shopping kt bukit bintang..

with frenzz, there's no specified agenda.. no fixed time... i felt so loosen out.. no tense.. bestt.. tenang sikit.. beli wallet baru.. kt parkson grand... x la glamer brandnye.. tp ok la.. coz my purse da koyak.. hehe.. pastu lepak kt starbucks coffee.. haha terasa cam orang kaya plaks... walaupun sekejap.. hehehe... da nk masuk 2 tahun our frenship.. still new.. but in those 2 years. i've seen that each one of us has become more matured.. it's not too much to say that i can see each of us are now focused in our lives.. building up our careers... i'm so proud of them...

hmm.. my desire to indulge myself came from a fear to go to UH tomorrow.. huhu.. esok cabut gigi wei.. huhu.. tiba2 je cam nervouss.. debar jantung aku wei.. hmm bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Some very good and very bad things

hey.. juz something i wanna share from an email i got from a fren.. enjoy...

Some very good and very bad things
The most destructive habit....... ......... ...... Worry
The greatest Joy......... ......... ......... .... Giving
The greatest loss........ ........ Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work........ ....... Helping others
The ugliest personality trait....... ...... Selfishness
The most endangered species..... .... Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource.... ......... .. Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm"........ .. Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome.... ......... .... Fear
The most effective sleeping pill........ Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease..... ....... Excuses
The most powerful force in life........ ......... . Love
The most dangerous pariah...... ......... ... A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer.... .... The brain
The worst thing to be without..... ......... ..... Hope
The deadliest weapon...... ......... ........ The tongue
The two most power filled words....... ........ "I Can"
The greatest asset....... ......... ......... ..... Faith
The most worthless emotion..... ......... .... Self- pity
The most beautiful attire...... ......... ....... SMILE!
The most prized possession.. ......... ..... Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication. .... Prayer
The most contagious spirit...... ......... .. Enthusiasm
The most important thing in life........ ......... . Almighty GOD
Everyone needs this list to live by...
Please pass it along.......
Great opportunities to help others seldom come, but small ones surround us every day

Indulgence Day !!

PERCAYALAH IMPIANMU

Haiii blog kesayanganku.. hehe... hari ni saturday.. was a very fun day for me.. it's the indulgence day !! went to visit my lovely fren in kajang.. she got her 2nd baby yesterday afternoon.. huh it was a surprise.. as i dun even know she's pregnant.. hmm she purposely kept it as a secret.. totally understand as her first pregnancy didn't turn out well.. her 2nd pregnancy was full of obstacles and hardship but she managed to go thru it...then her 3rd one she said was fine, but juz dun want to heboh heboh.. i'm so happy for her.. went to kajang hospital.. and chit chat from 115 to 330 pm.. missed her a lot.. she's the kind of fren, that nothing can stop me to see her.. she's kinda priority to me..i went there today with my honda.. even it was raining... hehe congrats on ur newborn baby Dr.Azimah !! keep on producing.. haha

i went to kajang without my handphone ! tah cemana tertinggal coz was charging it.. when i reached home almost 26 missed calls... haha.. but i returned only 1 call.. from my teman setia.. hehe.. then i went out to the curve... hmmm yummie yummie.. had dinner at the marche..i had seafood platter n w/melon juice.. ramai jgk org kt the curve.. nk masuk kn beratur sekejap..ida diet, she had only salads and potatoes..the food was great.. the chit chat was even better.. kiterang smpai awal.. around 7 kot.. dok situ till 9++ kot.. then ronda2 around.. hehe... best jugak cuci mata kengkadang. release stress.. have to admit... this job is quite tough.. we have to be strong in and out.. and teamwork is the most important thing.. ida's a very experienced honeyweller.. i learned loads from her..i share most of her stand.. as long as we play honest with our job, good things will come..

i learned something tonite..in a relationship or friendship.. we cannot force ourselves.. a good relationship shines our inner side.. if we're not ourselves, or we turned out to be someone else.. hmm it's just not meant for you.. i realised that some time i forced myself to befriend with somebody.. but yet myself hates it... coz it contradicted with my own inner desire.. we have to be sincere with ourselves..
oh my sarcastic side is getting stronger... haha.. so everybody out there, especially those in my life.. be prepared for my sarcasticmme.. haha... spent too much time... even sacrificed a lot juz to please people.. but at the end of the day.. hey.. who will please me ?? if not myself.. don't care what people say, just follow ur own way..don't give up and use the chance.. to return to innocence.. sounds familiar ?? enigma- return to innocence..

chiaw... gud nite ma mcblog !! mwahhss..tomorrow me going for a gath.. n it's bowling time... will get back to u with the details.. hmm da lama x men boling.. it's hentam time !! yeehaaa...

OGA 2007

Oil n gas.. hmm x sangka plak aku masuk industri ni.. cita2 dulu lebih banyak cenderung nk masuk CS.. or tele.. tapi aku baru tahu rupenye, CS mmg byk kaitan dgn dcs/scada.. ari ni aku ponteng keje 1/2 hari.. haha pergi KLCC tengok Oil n Gas Asia 2007.. OGA 2007..da gtau LEAD aku soon to be Asst.EM.. hala balik terserempak ngn dia.. haha derang perli aku shopping ke ape dtg OGA.. huhu.. well.. i feel so lucky to have the opportunity to be in this field.. Dunia O&G ni luas rupenye.. sbg org baru, OGA ni byk membantu aku memahami dan memperkukuhkan perspektif kerjaya dalam O&G ni.. hmm banyak sangaaatt menda nk kena belajo.. Perancangan ALLah itu adalah yang terbaik.. syukur dan semoga ALLah terus murahkan rezeki.. ameen..

best giler g exhibition ni coz dapat souveniour yang x terkira banyak nye.. pen.. diari.. paper bag toksah cakap ar.. key chain.. banyak company besar2 dari seluruh dunia wat exhibition.. n aku sempat belajar a few demonstration. .bnyk jugak la.. fooh so high tech... tidak ketinggalan ada company based kt malaysia.. x sangka betul aku.. company logistic.. bikin lori angkut minyak.. SCOMI.. ingatkan from europe ke mane ke.. malaysia rupenye.. huhu..

oil n gas kalo nk buat duit.. memang la. tp bese la.. nothing's free.. kena ada pengorbanan sikit... hmm i think keje ape pun sama je..

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Sarcastic Moments

Sarcastic... wud be the most precise word to describe me now.. Resulting from too many dissatisfaction in life.. frustrations.. unfair treatment.. muahahaha...

aku rasa macam best je .. behaving as such.. sarcastic.. kadang2 tu da ckp pun x faham2 jugak.. so sarcastic is the right thing to do.. next week another experienced PM is going to resign.. dunno bout others but i cud smell disaster's coming.. more new people are coming in.. somebody told me today, people like me, expected to lead them.. hmm.. i guess this is what they unLEADed.. but yet must lead others..

da serabut da rasanye.. but hope for changes in july. as many people has been talking about... hopefully..

arini aku gaduh ngn kenny.. aku tinggi suara kt dia... sebab da lama aku simpan.. menyampah ngn act dia.. but then we managed to seat and talk... almost 1.5 hours.. i'm glad we managed to clear things up.. it was quite a quality talk.. x tau mcm ne nk huraikan kt sini.. banyak sangat yang dibincangkan.. tapi antara main point nye..

aku ckp aku x puas ati dgn dia, asek nk pressure aku.. ari2 tanya pasal status.. mintak aku report kt dia pulak.. berlagak mcm lead.. kalo tanya cara baik, aku x de hal.. tapi tanya mcm nk marah... da nk dekat 3 minggu dia mcm tu.. padahal dia antara org paling close ngn aku kt opis tu..

aku jd naik angin time dia mintak manual ngn aku tadi.. pastu dia cakap dia x leh keje ngn aku kalo mcm ni.. so dia ajak bincang.. mula da x de hati da nk bincang.. x kan x faham2... bukannye dia x kenal aku mcm mana.. tapi dia insist nk jugak diskus.. so ok la.. aku diskus jek la.. siap dlm bilik miting lagi tu..

then dlm miting baru la dia ckp.. wat has been going on with him.. as expected.. org atas ari2 dok pressure dia.. dalam hati aku, pdn muka la.. coz dia tu mmg wat keje nk kiss *** aje.. n mmg dia kta dia terpaksa ikut sbb derang boss maa.. nanti boss jugak tentukan appraisal la.. naik pangkat la.. wat the hell man.. i don't work that way..

then aku tny kalo boss u salah pun u nk ikut ke.. hmm x sangka dia jawab ye la derang boss maa.. adoii.. tah pepe manusia ni...

i dun care la cara dia. janji aku da cakap ngn dia kalo dgn aku tlg ar.. i work with honesty.. kalau kita honest dgn keje kita, good things will come..

hmm ada byk lg yg dibicarakan.. tp tak terluah kt sini.. sbb mls nk ingat..
tapi kesimpulannye aku da ok dgn kenny.. n now i dun mind updating with him bout my job.. biar la dia nk kiss *** sesape pun.. jadi moral of the story buat aku pada hari ini ialah.. as depicted below.. XOXO