da lama x blog..

hai blog.. dah lama x tulis kt sini.. x tau nk tulis ape coz not much happening things lately.. sebulan x pegi site last month..arghh my income dropped..
anyway last month my cuzen kawen.. ok la.. cud be better... mmg meriah..

the dooms, the damns and the downs of my life..

mmg da lama giler aku x update blog ni.. not that i have nothing to write.. it's just too much in my head rite now.. especially after i lost the most lovable aunty, "DE" in my life.. she passed away last ramadhan, on the 13th.i did expect it. but didn't expect it too soon.it was second after i lost mak ngah in kelantan last august. on the 12th i just texted her saying tht i'm coming for work in kuantan and i want to company her when her husband goes for terawih. well, wat's gone is gone. ape yg penting, i thank GOD very much coz she went away peacefully and the best was in ramadhan. n i thank GOD that i have told her tht i love her. at least she knows it.

after the lost, i was morally down. lost my appetite. but life still needs to go on. people ask me to take care of my cousin, Yin. this late few years, we became quite close as she stayed with me for a while before moved in with her brother.

both aunties, was the major help during my family crisis in 2003. it was 5 years ago but everything is crystal clear in my head. i've told my frens about it. but none knows everything coz i didn't have time to tell it all. soo many things happen. learnt a lot about life that time.

susah nk citer kt dlm ni. dunno how to express it. sometimes i thot of putting into a novel or something. but not everybody can understand. hikmah aunty i pergi, is that we bonded back with my other aunty whom we "had crisis" with. not that tight but at least better than before. sblum ni raya pun aku ngn akak aku x hingin nak pergi. tahun ni la 1st time pergi raya. her kids tahun ni la baru oksikit. besala memula hipokrit la jgk.lantak la.. biasa je.

for now, i think i just want to concentrate on my work. my life. my sis. my mom. my bro. my dad.. yang lain tu kalau ade kira extra la. kite x leh dapat semua benda kt dlm dunia ni.. ape pun aku semakin memahami takdir hidup yg ALLah tentukan selama ni. wallahualam.

Saje suka suka

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Azzalea

2. What were you doing at 0800?
trying to get out of bed..

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
in the office, doing stuffs..

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Life was simple, broke but happy. free !!

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
eh cemana nk print booklet ..?

6. How many beverages did you have today?
fried mee for sahur..

7.What color is your hairbrush?
pink

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
my car.. @#$%^&*

9. Where were you last night?
went to send some kurma to eni's house..

10. What color is your front door?
dark green..

11. Where do you keep your change?
Purse, in my car, werever it fits..

12. What’s the weather like today?
fine

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
metropolitan

14. What excites you?
hmm.. paintball? any indoor sports will do..

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
yes. thot of having it next week..

16. Are you over the age of 25?
yes

17. Do you talk a lot?
only when tensed or excited.

18. Do you watch the O.C ?
sometimes.. great drama..

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yeah my neighbour here in pj and kuantan..

20. Do you make up your own words?
not really.

21. Are you a jealous person?
rationally yes.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘ A ‘?
anand the crazy man..

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘ K ‘?
KJ?

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Anand the crazy man

25. What does the last text message your received say?
ada.. kita bukak puasa kat sini..ayhngah tido cni.!

26. Do you chew on your straw?
yeah u caught me..

27. Do you have curly hair?
No

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
pasar ramadhan kelana jaya

29. Who’s the rudest person in life?
her..

30. What was the last thing you ate?
fried mee for sahur

31. Will you get married in the future?
insyaallah

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
i rarely watched any movie lately

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
not really

34. When was the last time you did the last wishes?
last night

35. Are you currently depressed?
just lost my favorite auntie.. n that's a yes..

36. Did you cry today?
no. had enuff..

Al Fatihah to Mok Ngoh

AlFatihah..
Tamat sudah riwayat ibu saudara ku, kakak kepada ayah. kali terakhir aku jumpa mok ngoh masa awal july. masa tu mok ngoh nazak jugak. kt hospital. mok ngoh sesak nafas. alhamdulillah masa tu semakin pulih. mok ngoh dpt balik rumah.

1st time aku dpt tahu mok ngoh diagnosed with cancer was in april. masa tu aku kt kuantan. time dpt tahu tu pun aku dah nangis.. aku x tau kenapa. tp masa aku dpt tahu "De", adik mak aku dpt kanser aku x nangis. dlm hati aku masih ada harapan utk De pulih. mungkin sebab beza umur antara de ngn mok ngoh. plus mok ngoh was already at stage 4 punye kanser. tapi De still at stage 3.

23rd of August
1.20 pm
- my cuzen called informing me of her death.
1.30 pm
- fetch my father from his home. surprisingly to find him not even ready yet.
2.30 pm
- depart from sunway.
- fetch my brother at pekeliling
3.30 pm
- br dpt masuk karak highway after gone thru such mass traffic.
11.00 pm
- arrived at mok ngoh's house.
- greet my cuzen to see her so calm.
- i slept for only 2 hours that night.
- accompanied my cuzen.she cried beside her mother. yet still calm even tho crying.

24th August 2008
6.00 am
- subuh prayer
- get things ready to mandikan jenazah.
7.30 am
- i made the water to be used, kapur barus and daun hmm can't remember the name.
9.00 am
- ustazah yg lead mandi jenazah tu baru smpai. then baru la start mandikan jenazah.
- my cuzen, eni,me and few other cousins, and also in laws also helped.
aku sgt berbesar hati dpt peluang mandikan arwah. sebab aku rs bersalah sangat x jaga dia masa dia sakit.

10.40 am
- kafankan arwah
- sembahyang jenazah
- iring ke kubur. yg naik dlm van jenazah masa tu, ayah ngoh, mok ngoh's children (eni, hisham n yon), me n my dad

11.00 am
- alhamdulillah sesampai di kubur semua urusan mudah. anak2 mok ngoh sgt berharap dpt tanam before kul 12 sebab itu waktu yg elok. alhamdulillah tercapai.

12.00 pm
- bertolak balik rumah
- makan tengahari
- dpt la tidur skejap. mmg kepenatan.

2.00 pm
- fetch my cuzen's husband from airport.

7.30 pm
- after solat maghrib, siap-siap untuk kenduri tahlil

itula aktiviti me n my family last weekend. mok ngoh aku ni dia la yg selalu tolong orang. dia tolong masa kakak aku kahwin aritu. mok ngoh selalu pesan kt aku walau mcm mana pun ayah tetap ayah aku. walau dia byk buat perangai.. mok ngoh pesan kt cuzen aku suruh carikan jodoh untuk aku. terharu betul aku dgr.

aku x sangka betul mok ngoh dah takde. mak sedara aku yg baik hati ade 2 je. mok ngoh ngn de. dua2 sakit. sorang da x de. ape2 pun aku redho. semoga ALLah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mok ngoh.i love you mok ngoh. insyaallah eni ya adounii hisham yon abe mie lai will always pray for you. kitorang akan terus bersatu as a family..

ameen.

mok ngoh dalam kenangan..

Interpersonal Intelligence

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 77%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is High You are definitely a "people person." You enjoy spending time with others. You instinctively understand people, and you are both a good counsellor and mediator. However, there are definitely times when you've had enough. And that's when you cherish being alone.

How Does Your Interpersonal Intelligence Rate?

Outcome of nothing to blog mood..

People Definitely Like You

You are very well liked, and many people admire you. You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around. Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay. Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are! What People Don't Like About You: People don't like that you seem unnatural and stiff at times. You sometimes give off an impression of being standoffish or fake. What People Like About You: People like that you can defend what you believe in calmly and rationally. You stand your ground and gain respect. People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves! People like your self deprecating sense of humor and that you don't take yourself too seriously.

Do People Like You?

Lucky Number 28

28.. the number twists today.. it's not the 28 that i imagined 10 years ago.. however, i thank GOD for what I have now..

just hoping more maturity, prosperity and all other +ve ity that i can get..hehe..
not much to say.. Happy Birthday to Me..