the dooms, the damns and the downs of my life..

mmg da lama giler aku x update blog ni.. not that i have nothing to write.. it's just too much in my head rite now.. especially after i lost the most lovable aunty, "DE" in my life.. she passed away last ramadhan, on the 13th.i did expect it. but didn't expect it too soon.it was second after i lost mak ngah in kelantan last august. on the 12th i just texted her saying tht i'm coming for work in kuantan and i want to company her when her husband goes for terawih. well, wat's gone is gone. ape yg penting, i thank GOD very much coz she went away peacefully and the best was in ramadhan. n i thank GOD that i have told her tht i love her. at least she knows it.

after the lost, i was morally down. lost my appetite. but life still needs to go on. people ask me to take care of my cousin, Yin. this late few years, we became quite close as she stayed with me for a while before moved in with her brother.

both aunties, was the major help during my family crisis in 2003. it was 5 years ago but everything is crystal clear in my head. i've told my frens about it. but none knows everything coz i didn't have time to tell it all. soo many things happen. learnt a lot about life that time.

susah nk citer kt dlm ni. dunno how to express it. sometimes i thot of putting into a novel or something. but not everybody can understand. hikmah aunty i pergi, is that we bonded back with my other aunty whom we "had crisis" with. not that tight but at least better than before. sblum ni raya pun aku ngn akak aku x hingin nak pergi. tahun ni la 1st time pergi raya. her kids tahun ni la baru oksikit. besala memula hipokrit la jgk.lantak la.. biasa je.

for now, i think i just want to concentrate on my work. my life. my sis. my mom. my bro. my dad.. yang lain tu kalau ade kira extra la. kite x leh dapat semua benda kt dlm dunia ni.. ape pun aku semakin memahami takdir hidup yg ALLah tentukan selama ni. wallahualam.