Demam..

Jumaat 21Mac 2008
mulanye sakit kepala aje.. tp sakit mmg agak luar biasa... tak tahu la kenapa sakit kepala mlm tu.. so mlm tu aku mmg tido awal.. lgpun esok nye dah janji dgn milo nk antor dia.. aku telan panadol n aku tido jek la smpai esok..

Sabtu 22Mac 2008
Aku bangun kul 545 .. sakit kepla masih terasa.. x tau la apsal. berat betul kepala.. lepas antar milo mmg flat aku tido kt rumah.. smpai keesokan harinye. bdn terasa panas. tp selalu nye kalo aku rs aku ni demam maknanye x demam la tu. tu pasal aku mls nk layan. and so aku juz makan panadol aje. x g klinik pun.

Ahad 23Mac 2008
alhamdulillah ahad dah ok sikit. aku lepak ngn ida siap jenjalan kt OU lagi. tgk wayang plak tu.citer 27,000 dresses.. best giler. sempat la menghiburkan hati ida yg busan tu.. haha.. aku pun terhibur jgk. pastu mkn kt shogun. aku xde la rasa sehat sgt. tp sehari bersama teman mmg melegakan sikit. mlm tu aku juz mkn panadol sbb rs mcm panas badan. lalu tidorla dgn lena nye..

Isnin 24Mac 2008
hari ni aku keje mcm bese. aku dtg awal as usual. pastu mesti tido dulu pepagi kt surau. then time lunch aku tido lagi. aku rasa x sedap badan. rasa panad jek badan. besenya aku x tido tengahari. arini aku mmg pelik sebab aku tido waktu lunch. lena plak tu. rasa lemah. so aku decide pegi klinik. debuk ! doktor memberitakan sesuatu yang sangat tidak sedap didengar. i was suspected denggi. mau tak terkejut beruk aku. sakit kepala yg disangka akan hilang saja tetiba suspek plak mcm ni. adoi.. smpai opis je aku gtau PM aku.. spt reaksi biasa beliau. "Alamak.." mmg da xtahu nk ckp ape. so dia suruh aku balik. nasib baik esok x jadi g site..

Selasa 25Mac 2008
Still feeling feverish. shaking. no appetite. tired. all the down feelings. had the first blood test today. it was 158. quite normal as told by a friend.

Rabu 26Mac 2008
arini aku da x demam sangat. cuma letih aje. agaknye penat badan aku ni dok lawan penyakit.. sian badann... arini aku sedih sebab blood test arini drop to 119. aku dpt mc lagi.. dah hari ke 3 aku mc. aku malas nk layan so aku just makan obat n tido aje.. makan pun x lalu juz mkn roti aje..lg pun arini cirit birit.. khatib kol aku juz jawab hmmm.. sebab aku tgh tido.. dia tny aku kt umah ke.. aku ckp aah. demam. so x pe nnt dia kol bila dah sehat.. haha cam lawak jek..

Khamis 27Mac 2008
today run into blood test again. this time it was 115. Kak Jimot kata da statik tu kira ok. lgpun da x demam.tp tah nape doktor kt klinik suh dtg jgk. dia suh aku buat blood test kt hospital. becoz katanye my platlet clumping. so x dpt exact reading. hmm... so petang tu pulak aku kn g opis. ada org dr singapore dtg jumpa aku. so aku pergi la kejap.. dlm kul 6 aku g PPUM. nk buat blood test. nasib ade si salmi teman. kalo tidak nangeh aku.. dah la sedeh.. huhu.. pukul 1 br dpt result hampeh.com betul.. sama jgk. clumping. dia amik lg darah aku. tp ak da maleh dah nk tengok.

Jumaat 28Mac 2008
Hari ni 1st day aku kembali bekerja. ramai jugak yg bertanya. glame aku satu opis suma tau aku suspek denggi. bagus jugak semoga seramai itu juga la yg telah mendoakan aku. terima kasih. arini pulak ada miting. aku kena balik kuantan. setup system ready for shutdown. utk loopcheck sumer. well let's go HOME.. :)

mcm tu la kesah sakit aku minggu lalu.. sedeh.. takut. aku sampai nangis pun ade. yelah sebab da x sehat. pastu doktor klinik yg bodoj tu pulak nakut nakut kan aku. dah la x pandai.. tny kak jimot pun lg tahu. doktor tua semuanye... bongok tul. tobat x g dah klinik tu..

Life at 27+++

Hello mcblog.. well.. life goes on.. just that a "new" family member just stepped in. my neo.. alhamdulillah akhirnya dpt jugak aku beli kereta.. even with many circumstances. syukur ke hadrat ALLah s.w.t.. walaupun kerana kereta itu juga ada tragedi yg berlaku. hmm.. x tau la nk kt ape da.. mungkin dulu aku x caya sgt kt mamat tu.. kurang la.. maybe % aku trust dia dulu hanye 60%.. tp skrg ni 0%.. sorry to say... he cud be my own blood.. but he is the blood from hurt feelings.. not to mention my mom.. i dunno la all this fella.. couldn't exactly express it all here.. but i know. because i'm the one feeling it..

i thank ALLah i still got my father & my sister.. i think education is very important. how our mind is educated dictates our thinking.. which led to our actions. i'm not calling them stupid. but i finally got to make a conclusion that this is one of the factors. both "mamat" n her is not highly educated. not to mention that DATIN also.. she's even worse. she flopped her SRP. but since she got rich, she thinks she owns the world, and the people who lives in it.. hmm let it be...
seriously these people (excluding my mother) have tortured me.. emotionally was the major part. "mamat" left house to live on his own since i was 15. we rarely see each other. we don't even communicate. at times, i had my circumstances.. BIG ones.. he's not even there to say hello. not even from afar. not to mention when i was taking my big exam, SPM. it was only my sis. who asked how am i doing. not to say i mind. but it hurts a lot when i am this stage, he claims me to be not helping him. why suddenly he is in my life. he's been disappeared all time long.. it's a BIG F***ing lie if i say i love him... it's a BIG F***ing lie too if i say i hate him. just no feelings wud be the best to describe it.. i just don't care about him any more..

and Her.. hmm she has always on "mamat's" side since we're little... i was always the one to be blamed on.. S***.. i hate this situation.. however i need to confess.. this is what has made me stronger inside.. all those tests that HE gaved me.. i thank HIM.. i knew ALLAH know BEST..

i worked like hell here.. wat i get i need to give that "mamat".. it was with hard work i got to earn my honda wave..i am so so so so sad.. however.. i just need to move on.. from wat i know.. i always has been put to face.get things in hard way.. and for wat i know.. it is more precious. and we will appreciate it more.. for every difficulties, there's always ease after it.... things has never been easy for me.. please ALLAh help me GOD.... Syukur alhamdulillah..

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sabar je la.. keje kt honeywell ni byk menguji kesabaran aku.. not to mention my maturity.. aku suka keje aku.. cuma kalau la diberi lebih masa untuk mengkaji. aku yakinaku da konfiden dgn experion. cuma skrg aku sgt lemah dlm advanced application. sbb menda tu kn tahu backgorund instrument, process.. hmm nk confugure the application is a headache, which i have already managed.. i mean only about 80% la..

but on how to really use it is one thing.. hmm bukannye senang.. otai kt sini.. hmm.. ade "angin" dia sndiri.. mls la nk layan.. kalo dia blh buat. aku mst blh buat punyer..

isnin ni ade audit nk dtg.. insyaallah.. aku yakin.. i'm gonna nail it..

300

sumanye pasal rm300 .. arini actually aku janji ngn abg aku nk pass motor. dia beli dr aku.. sedih jgk nk lego mtr tu. sbb aku je la yg tahu payah jerih nye time beli mtr tu. tp aku follow advice kwn aku. dia kt jual la.. for family's sake.. n aku pun pk betul jgk.. aku mmg da rela hati da..

abg aku da byr 1k advance.. seingat aku yg mmg sentiasa pelupa ni.. aku janji nk lego at the price of 2.3k.. mmg aku betul2 ingat mcm tu.. so arini nk bg mtr abg aku nk la kasi balance.. so aku ingt lg 1.3k la.. tp aku ckp 300 tu x pe la kemudian pun x pe..
terus naik hangin abg aku... mcm2 kata2 kesat. mmg sgt sakit ati bile membaca sms tu.. then since abg aku tu insist sgt 2k je aku pun ok la x pe.. nk buat cemna.. then aku siap mintak maaf lg. aku ckp aku mmg betul2 lupa.. tp dia x nk jgk.. siap da x ngaku aku ni adik dia.. fine la... akt least aku da cuba..

so perasaan aku sekarang hanya lah sedih, sedikit gementar.. x sangka.. hny krn 300.. mcm ni sekali reaksi dia.. patutnye sbg abg dia la yg tlg aku.. ni terbalik pulakk.. dulu time aku study x berduit.. x pnh plk nk amik tau.. skrg bila aku da keje br la nk tunjuk muka.. ape hal mamat ni.. bod*** rupenye.. so kalo pape jd kt aku.. sesape yg baca ni.. tau la angkara nye abg aku la... sumanye gara2 300 ringgit..

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Tak semua cam kiterr...

eloo.. long time no blogging.. as time forbids.. well life ain't that much fun lately.. well it's nothing.. just having lead who just quits.. a bundle of work needs to be done.. had to cope up with schedule for more than 1 thing in one week at the sme time.. setelah puas merayu bantuan.. at last dpt jgk setelkan..with only minor hiccups.. tah la kdg2 aku x tau nk ckp mcm mane.. aku nye keje ni berjenis-jenis.. setiap stu pun aku kn go thru manual yg ratus2 muka. nk paham lagi. nk configure lg. suma pun nk kn siap cepat.. pastu nk kn troubleshoot lg. ntah la.. maybe aku je yg pk cm tu.. orang lain nye keje lg hebat. aku ni sape la... nk mtk tlg skt pun susah bkn main.. mls nk layan..

honestly mmg xde sape yg aku leh trust kt sini. becoz everybody's not honest. bila kt buat silap. x de sape nk tlg tegur. tegur yg membina. ckp belakang je kejenye.. i juz hate this kind of attitude.. well.. kesimpulannye.. tak semua cam kiterr..